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		<title>The Year That Was: 2008 In Review</title>
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		<description><![CDATA[	January &#8211; Jay and I started the year by celebrating our 2nd anniversary together. If you want to refresh on how we first met (and the aftermath of that) you&#8217;ll have to look back to January of 2006. We were in Thailand for half of this month and pretty depressed to back in the US [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[	<p>January &#8211; <a href="http://eternalapprentice.blogsome.com" target="_blank">Jay</a> and I started the year by celebrating our 2nd anniversary together. If you want to refresh on how we first met (and the aftermath of that) you&#8217;ll have to look back to <a href="http://www.lumpesse.com/2006/01/">January of 2006</a>. We were in Thailand for half of this month and pretty depressed to back in the US again. So, you didn&#8217;t hear from me again until. . .</p>

	<p>April &#8211; Where I attended <a href="http://sex20con.com">Sex 2.0 </a>and had a fire lit under me. I started a <a href="http://twitter.com/ellie_lumpesse">Twitter account</a>, got involved with <a href="http://fetlife.com">FetLife</a>, and relaunched my <a href="http://bedroomradio.blogspot.com">podcast</a>. I finally realized that I was part of a community and <a href="http://www.lumpesse.com/2008/04/everything-that-i-need-to-know-in-live-i-learned-at-sex-20/">felt like I belonged</a>.<br />
<p style="text-align: center;"><a title="pole dancing ladies by lumpesse, on Flickr" href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/32309862@N00/2414118066/"><img class="aligncenter" src="http://farm4.static.flickr.com/3213/2414118066_d4ef0e6084_m.jpg" alt="pole dancing ladies" width="240" height="180" /></a></p><br />
May &#8211; I started reviewing products on my podcast and blog for <a href="http://www.vibereview.com/?minion=DDW">VibeReview</a>.</p>

	<p>June &#8211; I spent a lot of time <a href="http://www.lumpesse.com/2008/06/sex-and-pizza/">thinking</a> about <a href="http://www.lumpesse.com/2008/06/what-about-the-johns-an-audio-plea/">sex work</a> in both text and audio forms. I also got sort of <a href="http://www.lumpesse.com/2008/06/a-rant-to-alienate-and-enrage/">pissy and ridiculous</a> about blogging and met <a href="http://artemishunter.com/">Artemis Hunter</a> for the first time.</p>

	<p>July &#8211; I had my first freelance work published in <a href="http://www.lumpesse.com/2008/07/ellie-but-elsewhere/">The Naughty American</a> and dug up some old <a href="http://www.lumpesse.com/2008/07/ancient-photos-hnt-bonus/">camwhore shots</a>. I also experienced a bit of heartbreak, but it turned out a <a href="http://www.lumpesse.com/2008/07/this-isnt-an-angry-blog-entry/">great piece of writing</a> if I do say so myself. I also got <a href="http://www.lumpesse.com/2008/07/beginning-middle-end-hnt/">tied up</a> by Artemis and finally hooked up with Carmine who had previously only been known as &#8220;<a href="http://www.lumpesse.com/2008/07/carmine/">cross-dressing law student</a>&#8220;. Finally, I began publishing the <a href="http://www.lumpesse.com/category/masculinity/">Musings on Masculinity</a> series.<br />
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August &#8211; The biggest news and one of the happiest days of my last several years was telling my dad about my &#8220;secret identity&#8221;. I&#8217;m still basking in <a href="http://www.lumpesse.com/2008/08/this-should-have-been-the-hardest-thing-to-write-but-it-wasnt/">the joy of that moment</a> as I remember it. Also in July, Jay and I got to know <a href="http://www.lumpesse.com/2008/08/this-should-have-been-the-hardest-thing-to-write-but-it-wasnt/">Hania</a> much better.</p>

	<p>September &#8211; I was named #5 on the list of the Top 100 Sex Bloggers of 2008 among started a <a href="http://www.lumpesse.com/2008/09/where-else-is-ellie/">bajillion other projects</a>. We also went to <a href="http://darkodyssey.com/">Dark Odyssey Summer Camp</a> which was a watershed event for me despite the fact that I haven&#8217;t talked about it too much. I also <a href="http://www.lumpesse.com/2008/09/how-to-get-your-boyfriend-to-buy-you-a-corset/">presented at the Fetish Fair Flea Market</a> and got to meet <a href="http://catalinaloves.com">Catalina</a> and <a href="http://markydsade.com">Marky</a> for the first time.<br />
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October &#8211; The posts slowed down and the earth stopped moving because something remarkable happened. We met Ariel and Michael and fell in love and my feet still haven&#8217;t touched the ground. At first I could only express the <a href="http://www.lumpesse.com/2008/10/keep-it-like-a-secret/">feelings</a> in <a href="http://www.lumpesse.com/2008/10/still-mostly-wordless/">music</a>. But. . .</p>

	<p>November -&#160; . . . soon I found more detailed words and images to express my thoughts. I captured the <a href="http://www.lumpesse.com/2008/11/bite/">unique sadomasochistic relationship</a> that Michael and I have developed as well as the experienced of being <a href="http://www.lumpesse.com/2008/11/speechless/">fucked by Ariel</a> for the first time. And the sexy gave way to the mundanely profound as we found ourselves forming a type of family, <a href="http://www.lumpesse.com/2008/11/broken/">broken hollondaise and all</a>.</p>

	<p>December &#8211; Ariel starts <a href="http://www.lumpesse.com/2008/12/hitachi-magic-wand-from-babeland/">lending a hand</a> with reviews and I think that the format suits this site. Jay and I also <a href="http://thesexcarnival.com">visited</a> <a href="http://furrygirl.com">New</a> <a href="http://heartfullofblack.com">York</a> <a href="http://wannaplaymariella.blogspot.com">and</a> <a href="http://sugarbutch.net">saw</a> <a href="http://janieblooms.blogspot.com">tons</a> <a href="http://writingdirty.com">of</a> <a href="http://howmyotherhalflives.wordpress.com/">the</a> <a href="http://sexual-eccentricity.com/">friends</a> <a href="http://wakingvixen.com">that</a> <a href="http://prettydumbthings.typepad.com/">we</a> <a href="http://www.puckerup.com/">met</a> through the year. I also spent a sedate Birthday and Hanukkah at home with my new chosen family.<br />
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		<title>What&#8217;s wrong with sex work</title>
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		<pubDate>Mon, 06 Oct 2008 18:11:37 +0000</pubDate>
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		<description><![CDATA[	I stay away from a lot of feminist blogs because, well, reading them often hurts my soul. In fact other than perusing Feministing and Feministe, I leave it up to Ren, Trinity, Amber, and Caroline to keep my up to date on what is happening vis-a-vis sex and feminism. These ladies have the patience of [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[	<p>I stay away from a lot of feminist blogs because, well, reading them often hurts my soul. In fact other than perusing Feministing and Feministe, I leave it up to <a href="http://renegadeevolution.blogspot.com/">Ren</a>, <a href="http://sm-feminist.blogspot.com/">Trinity</a>, <a href="beingamberrhea.com">Amber</a>, and <a href="http://un-cool.blogspot.com/">Caroline</a> to keep my up to date on what is happening vis-a-vis sex and feminism. These ladies have the patience of saints because they manage to spend a lot of time reading the same angry arguments about sex work and responding to them over and over again.</p>

	<p>For a long time I knew that there was some fundamental lack of clash in the debate. An ideological space where the competing ideas could not be resolved because they are operating on different planes. Many radical and second wave feminists take a strong social constructionist view of gender and violence against women. Many sex positive feminists see this as lacking in nuance and denying the autonomy of individual women. But, that distinction has been on the table for a long time.</p>

	<p>Today I started thinking about another one when I was reading <a href="http://un-cool.blogspot.com/2008/10/some-thoughts-on-sex-positive-feminism.html">this post of Caroline&#8217;s</a>. She links to a blog where a very brave woman discusses her incredibly damaging and negative experiences in the sex industry. That woman believes that she is dismissed by sex positive feminists as being a &#8220;sad case&#8221; &#8211; that her experience is the exception and does not invalidate sex work. On the flip-side, many former sex workers that had positive experiences feel their voices are drowned out and silenced by radical feminists who claim they are apologists for the patriarchy.</p>

	<p>The problem is that these arguments still aren&#8217;t truly clashing with each other. Two claims are being debated as if they are a single one even though they are neither directly related nor mutually exclusive.</p>

	<p><strong>Claim #1: Sex work is wrong.</p>

	<p>Claim #2: There is something wrong within sex work.</strong></p>

	<p>The &#8220;within&#8221; is very important in that second claim. It distinguishes the idea that sex work is on face something to be rejected from the claim that there are problems in sex work that need to be remedied. I don&#8217;t know a single sex worker that would not concede the second claim. Of course there are individuals, <em>perhaps even the majority of individuals</em>, who are severely adversely affected by sex work. But, one claim does not automatically support the other because Claim #2 is a quantitative claim that describes a current problem whereas Claim #1 is qualitative and makes a value judgment. The material conditions of sex work can change and Claim #2 would be eroded but for those that support Claim #1, no change would be sufficient. By definition sex work is wrong and no number of pleasant personal experiences could change that.</p>

	<p>So, yes, I desperately abhor the abuse and mistreatment of sex workers. I loath the deeply disturbing and violent treatment that sex workers face. As a separate issue I am, of course, concerned about the trafficking of human beings or the exploitation and rape of children that cannot consent to entering the sex trade. I can see all of these things and I can still say that sex work should exist and can be healthy. I can believe that it will never disappear and so it must be prepared, not just to make the best of a bad situation but to create joy out of a vocation that should be honored instead of denigrated. I honor the voices of women that have experienced pain or violence in sex work and I don&#8217;t think that they are tokens. But, I think that their experiences provide a backdrop for an important change and&#174;evolution, not for a dismantling of an eternal system.</p>

	<p><em>(Also, go read the <a href="http://xxbnradio.blogspot.com/2008/10/feminist-carnival-of-sexual-freedom-and.html">11th Feminist Carnival of Sexual Freedom and Autonomy</a>)</em></p>
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		<title>Black Dicks in White Chicks: pornographic fantasies of miscegenation, black power, and the colonization of interracial desire</title>
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		<description><![CDATA[	I mentioned this paper several months ago when I wrote it.  I&#8217;m working on it again and decided to publish it here in its present form.  I&#8217;ve noticed a lot of great discussions on interracial porn appearing around the blogs (Audacia and Laughing Man, I&#8217;m looking at you) and thought I would jump [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[	<p><em>I <a href="http://lumpesse.com/?p=151">mentioned </a>this paper several months ago when I wrote it.  I&#8217;m working on it again and decided to publish it here in its present form.  I&#8217;ve noticed a lot of great discussions on interracial porn appearing around the blogs (<a href="http://www.wakingvixen.com/archives/000567.html">Audacia </a>and <a href="http://ethnorotica.com/">Laughing Man</a>, I&#8217;m looking at you) and thought I would jump into the fray.</em></p>

	<p>***</p>

	<p>For many open-minded Westerners, the fear of racial mixing was dismissed long ago.  Still, it remains a spectre on race relations and the associated taboos constitute a frightening series of questions and problems.  Liberal beliefs in equality and color-blindness often fall by the wayside at the moment that the question of erotic desire and racial mixing is introduced into the equation.  In this way, deeply seated anxieties about racial contamination and power remain an element of sexuality around the world, making work on colonial sexuality continually vital.  Frantz Fanon dedicates a significant portion of Black Skin, White Masks to describing interracial sexual relationships between the colonizer and the colonized. His chapters on the woman of color and the white man and the man of color and the white woman present two sides of the same coin; sexual power dynamics that fluctuate based upon sex, race, and political position.</p>

	<p>In both situations the woman in question is the site of colonization &#226;&#8364;&#8220; in the case of the woman of color, she is rendered as a symbol of the colonization of her nation. Fanon also expresses some clear resentment towards women of color as he describes their desire to always pursue the lightest men possible, to deny their nationality via their chosen sexual partners. Clearly, though, they are often the chosen. The conquest of these women by white men is an additional manifestation of the conquest of their nation. However, in the example of Mayotte, Fanon demonstrates a woman of Martinique that is bent on class ascension via racial means, &#226;&#8364;&#339;every woman in the Antilles, whether in a casual flirtation or in a serious affair, is determined to select the least black of the men.&#226;&#8364; (47) Fanon predicts that this racial self-loathing is re-projected onto the the youths of the next generation, either through the family structure or through the classroom or other social institutions. The message that will be passed on is of presumed inadequacy, one is only as &#226;&#8364;&#339;white as one is rich, as one is beautiful, as one is intelligent.&#226;&#8364; (51-52) These desired characteristics are ingrained as markers of whiteness. However, while attaining whiteness means attaining these characteristics, it is not clear that the converse is true. The colored person of the Antilles, in Fanon&#8217;s description, simply does not have true access to wealth, beauty, and intelligence because even having these qualities in abundance does not make them more white.</p>

	<p>Fanon opens his chapter on the man of color and the white woman with the following confession:</p>



	<p><blockquote>Out of the blackest part of my soul, across the zebra striping of my mind, surges this desire to be suddenly white.<br />
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I wish to be acknowledged not as black but as white.<br />
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Now &#8211; and this is a form of recognition that Hegel had not envisaged &#8211; who but a white woman can do this for me? By loving me she proves that I am worthy of white love. I am loved like a white man.<br />
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I am a white man.<br />
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Her love takes me into the noble road that leads to total realization. . .<br />
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I marry white culture, white beauty, white whiteness.<br />
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When my restless hands caress those white breasts, they grasp white civilization and dignity and make them mine. (63)</blockquote></p>



	<p>Fanon&#8217;s rhetoric in this poetic moment emphasizes the interaction between desire and identification.  He desires a white woman because he desires to be a white man and if not a white man, then just like a white man.  The white woman&#8217;s body, her breasts are the symbol of dignities that are refused Fanon as a black man.  This mythical white woman is deeply objectified, a mere marker for her race and civilization.  A less than human symbol and battleground for resistance.  Jonathan Dollimore, in a chapter on bisexuality, writes, &#226;&#8364;&#339;Do we ever simply desire the person we love, or is our desire not also partly an identification with him or her?  Simply put, the &#8216;I want you&#8217; of desire is complicated by the &#8216;I want to be you&#8217; of identification.&#226;&#8364; (27) While Dollimore refers to gender difference, the argument is clearly manifested in Fanon&#8217;s desire for racial difference and identification.  Fanon describes these urges as coming from the &#226;&#8364;&#339;darkest part&#226;&#8364; of his soul but from the &#226;&#8364;&#339;zebra stripping&#226;&#8364; of his mind.  The desire to be white comes from the part of him that is fully and darkly black, the soul and only &#226;&#8364;&#339;across&#226;&#8364; the part of him that is already conspicuously colonized by whiteness, his mind.  In this way, Fanon seems to imply that the desire for whiteness or more generally the desire for identification and assimilation is intrinsic to him, separate from his experience with colonization.  More importantly, this experience of identification may be just as commonly experienced by a white person as it is by him.</p>

	<p>Can Fanon&#8217;s troubling portrayal of racial mixing be used to describe the impetus behind contemporary examples of miscegenation? Certainly, a change in setting effects the validity of this claim. Furthermore, Fanon does not regularly acknowledge the actual human relationships and emotions that are in play as the result of a given marriage. His psycholanalysis is societal instead of individuated and therefore makes sweeping generalizations about the motivations of all interracial relationships. It discounts any instances of true cross-racial compatibility or couplings that are motivated by non-political factors (love or passion spring to mind although neither are fully outside of politics.) For this reason, his work is inadequate to explain actual interracial relationships. At the very least it must be acknowledged that his condemnation or critical approach to them is over-arching.</p>

	<p>However, there is something very useful about Fanon&#8217;s theories as they can be received by a contemporary, multi-racial American audience. It is clear that they can go a long way to explain the production and broad appeal of interracial pornography. The epidermalization of desire is reflected in contemporary interracial pornography. We need to look at not just how but also why interracial pornography portrays its characters in this way.</p>

	<p>As an opening caveat, it should be clear that I approach this question by considering these erotic materials as texts.  While much ink has been shed by anti-pornography feminists, I do not wish to enter the fray on the question of censorship.  Therefore, I have refrained from making normative claims about the existence of such work or its legitimacy in the community.  While it is easy to see why many find it distasteful, my purpose is to interrogate the psychology behind its creation and message, not the psychological effects of its existence or consumption.</p>

	<p>Of course it is never fully possible to bracket this question and I hope to dismantle one particular underpinning of the anti-pornography argument. Most of the arguments to censor pornography rest on Catherine MacKinnon&#8217;s position that pornography is a form of harmful hate speech, the speech is an action in itself and has harmful effects. The effects described usually are in the form of unrealistic attitudes towards women and sexuality. However, I will argue that the adult industry does not create these myths as an invidious attempt to corrupt the psychic and sexual health of the pornography consumer. Rather, the pornography industry (perhaps more than any other group of businesses I can imagine) creates their product based upon demand. Being affiliated with &#226;&#8364;&#339;the oldest profession&#226;&#8364; means that pornography makes a business of selling sex, one of the most basic of human drives. While a gadget manufacturer is also in the business of manufacturing desire for their product (humans are not born with a drive to own a mandolin slicer) the adult industry caters to a market that is always already there. Their productions do not exist in a social vacuum, rather they are based upon the desires and fantasies of their audience. This is not to say that pornographers cannot be exploitative. But it is to say that their marketing techniques and product development are almost necessarily some of the least invasive of any type of business that exists. This is not because of particular benevolence but because of the nature of the product, they sell something that is built into humans to want and desire. They also sell the manifestations of often unspoken fantasies.</p>

	<p>Another important caveat is regarding the appropriateness of comparing contemporary racism in the United States with the post-colonial condition of racism.  Certainly the diaspora of Africans has unique impact based upon their geographical location.  My argument is that these representations in pornography constitute a colonizing mindset that has never fully diminished in the American psyche.  This helps one to get away from the argument that particular pornography producers are racist and hateful (although some certainly might be) and allows for the more fruitful line of thinking that the demand for this sort of material makes a very real statement about the society that produces it.  The presence of this fantasy of colonization and subordination blur erotic lines to make a political statement.</p>

	<p>It is appropriate to begin with a description of the state of contemporary interracial pornography. What happens in these films? How are they marketed? And what are the racial tropes circulating within them? One popular weblogger and adult industry insider, Sam Sugar, described interracial pornography in <a href="http://sugarbank.com/2005/06/23/porn-and-prejudice/">the following way</a>:</p>



	<p><blockquote>I am a black man<br />
<br />
Your name: People will want to name you something that get&#226;&#8364;&#8482;s across that you have a big, black cock. The porn industry knows that black guys with small dicks do not exist. They know you have a cock like a cruise missile covered in radar absorbing paint. [...]<br />
<br />
Your movies: You will be offered roles in movies with the words black, gang, ballin&#226;&#8364;&#8482;, ass, jungle, and chocolate in the title. When you are asked to perform with white women they will be referred to using the words little, tiny, innocent, stretched and meat. E.g. &#226;&#8364;&#339;Big Black Beef Stretches Little Pink Meat&#226;&#8364;. I&#226;&#8364;&#8482;m sad to say that&#226;&#8364;&#8482;s a real movie. <br />
<br />
Your press: Every mention of your name will be followed by the imagined length of your cock in inches. People will refer to the &#226;&#8364;&#8482;soul&#226;&#8364;&#8482; you put into your performances and the &#226;&#8364;&#732;rhythm&#226;&#8364;&#8482; of your love tenderizing. <br />
<br />
<br />
I&#226;&#8364;&#8482;m a black woman<br />
<br />
Your name: Anything you like &#8211; bonus points for making it extra ghetto. Shaniqwa Debonair is an excellent choice. <br />
<br />
Your movies: It&#226;&#8364;&#8482;s all about being a chocolate sister. People will be unable to look at you without wanting to put your &#226;&#8364;&#732;phat ghetto booty&#226;&#8364;&#8482; in a video with some guys from The Digital Underground. The people doing this will be white. Regardless of the size of your butt it will be referred to as &#226;&#8364;&#732;two fine hams&#226;&#8364;&#8482;. Expect to get spanked a lot. <br />
<br />
Your press: The world needs to know that you have a lot of junk in the trunk. Your ass will get more coverage than your medical degree. If you ever get upset about anything you will be called an uppity high maintenance bitch. </blockquote></p>


	<p>While meant to elicit a laugh, his analysis is a grippingly honest description of the racialized discourse of sex and pornography. He makes few apologies for these realities and instead describes them plainly. These descriptions are difficult to stomach at times and seem as if they must be exaggerations.  They are not, and while graphic, the honesty of these complaints is compelling.  It is probably not shocking to know that Sugar&#8217;s descriptions of the treatment of black men and women is sandwiched among other groups of people that are fetishized in pornography including Latinos, Asians, and physically different people.  Especially useful is description of how these films are marketed. The titles that are chosen and the words and descriptions that appear on box covers are the essence of the pornography producer&#8217;s pitch to their client. They are meant to appeal to their audience instantly and stand out amongst a plethora of other options. Why do these titles have such a broad appeal?  The easy answer is that only racists buy such materials but the broad demand and the mainstream nature of them seems to undermine that option.</p>

	<p>At face value, it is simple to dismiss these representations as repugnant, however there is a deeper ambivalence to this genre.  Some argue that by depicting interracial sex, a traditionally taboo subject in American culture, that this pornography can lead to breaking the taboos that exist and allow for greater acceptance of interracial relationships.(Williams, 274)  The counterpoint, of course, exists that the extreme caricatures are more damaging than they can ever be fruitful.  Because the focus of these films is on the interracial aspect, the performers are distilled to cultural and sexual stereotypes and are not individuated outside of that.  Pornography is rarely interracial in an incidental way.  The question of race is constantly brought to the fore in the titles of pieces as well as the dialogue that occurs between characters.</p>

	<p>The market for these films is varied.  Some are meant to appeal to white men while others<br />
are intended to have a broader appeal.  This begs the question, if the audience of interracial pornography is, itself, interracial what is the message of it?  Clearly, the message is different for each individual viewer just as their motivations for watching may be individual.  The <span class="caps">BDSM</span> fetish community has a motto: Safe, Sane, Consensual.  Practitioners of bondage, domination, and sadism maintain that as long as an activity between two adults meets that three-pronged test, it is acceptable.  While not all people within the community may find it arousing and some may even find it repugnant, if it passes this test <span class="caps">BDSM</span> practitioners will not practice judgment.  &#226;&#8364;&#339;Safe, Sane, and Consensual&#226;&#8364; is used to eroticize and create safe spaces for acceptance of many fringe forms of sexual play and the role playing of extreme situations such as rape, bestiality, and incest.  If these acts are accepted by a sexual community can educated people make the same allowances for what we find distasteful in interracial pornography?  One thing that <span class="caps">BDSM</span> play and pornography clearly have in common is the element of performance and the desire to segment desires in such a way that they have multiple interpretations.  If pornography is nothing else, it is rhetorical, and its reception is entirely dependent upon the desires of the viewing audience.</p>

	<p>Interracial pornography requires a performance of race by the actors involved. The dialog in these films is always self-aware and referential to the racial difference between the actors. The contrast between their bodies is emphasized continually.  A black actress is playing a different role in an interracial film than she might be in a film that emphasizes the size of her breasts or a particular sexual act.  She is always a black actress but her blackness becomes the commodity that is traded.  While it may be hard to believe, it is plausible that the actress in question derives just as much sexual satisfaction from racialized sexual play as the white male that may be watching her performance.  Likewise, a submissive in a <span class="caps">BDSM</span> context is just as sexually invested in their own humiliation as the person that does the humiliating.  It is easy to revert to the argument that such sexual desires stem from some manifestation of self-loathing or insecurity but that explanation is dangerously paternalistic.  Acceptance of such lifestyle choices does not necessarily imply advocacy of them or agreement with them.  However, exiting personal preferences for a moment in order to fathom difference is a crucial step in the obliteration of oppressive taboos, including those against racial mixing.</p>

	<p>Just as Fanon interprets negrophobia as a form of white sexual anxiety, the politically<br />
fearful dismissal of interracial pornography stems from deeply held taboos about race.  The performance of stereotypes, while distasteful can have a positive effect,</p>


	<p><blockquote>Stereotypes are important objects of study not because we can better learn to eliminate them from our thinking, but because they cannot be eliminated.  Stereotypes persist, and perhaps even thrive on, the protestations against them; the louder the protest, the more they thrive. [...] To forbid all utterance or depiction of the stereotype of the originally phobic image of the large black penis is to grant it a timelessness and immortality that it does not really possess. (Williams, 284) </blockquote></p>


	<p>So, it is because of the fetishistic nature of the stereotypes, as they are already uttered, that the compulsion to repeat their utterance can actually have a positive effect.  This is not a blanket suggestion to toss around slurs and half-truths but instead a way to implore people to see them for what they are &#226;&#8364;&#8220; archaic but deeply held beliefs to be questions.  The sooner a move is made away from holding them as sacred, the sooner we can mock and demystify these stereotypes, the more likely it is that interracial sexual relationships will lose their stigma.  However, I want to be perfectly clear that these arguments are merely a way to accept and interpret interracial pornography in a useful way &#226;&#8364;&#8220; to find a space where these celebrations of difference can be transmuted into an understanding of the powerful erotic desires that ground contemporary race relations.  Are the stereotypes exploited in interracial pornography liberatory in and of themselves?  Are the actors involved always intentionally problematizing race or experiencing sexual satisfaction from their performances of racial stereotypes?  Of course not, the producer&#8217;s only intrinsic intention is to make money on their product, making it neutral at best.  Many actors are exploited or at least not particularly invested in the racial tone of the product they are producing.  But recognizing the adult choices that go into the production of such material and accepting fantasies without judgments can contribute greatly in stripping the stigma from interracial sexuality.</p>

	<p><strong>Works Referenced</strong><br />
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Dollimore, Jonathan. Sex, Literature, and Censorship. Malden, MA: Blackwell, 2001. <br />
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Fanon, Frantz.  Black Skin, White Masks.  Trans. Lam Markmann.  New York: Grove Press, 1967.<br />
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Foucault, Michel.  The History of Sexuality Volume 1. Trans. Robert Hurley. New York: Vintage Books, 1990.<br />
</p>

	<p>MacKinnon, Catharine A. Only Words. Cambridge, MA: Harvard University Press, 1993.</p>

	<p>Penley, Constance.  &#8220;Crackers and Whackers: The White Trashing of Porn.&#8221; Porn Studies.  Ed. Linda Williams.  Durham and London: Duke University Press, 2004.<br />
Sugar, Sam. &#8220;Porn and Prejudice.&#8221; Sugarbank. 23 June 2005. 14 Nov. 2005 <http ://sugarbank.com/2005/06/23/porn-and-prejudice/>.</p>

	<p>Williams, Linda. &#8220;Skin Flicks on the Racial Border: Pornography, Exploitation, and Interracial Lust.&#8221; Porn Studies. Ed. Linda Williams. Durham and London: Duke University Press, 2004.</p>
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		<description><![CDATA[	Up until now the only people that have taken pictures of me naked are myself and people I am having sex with.  Recently, I was approached by an amateur erotic photographer who is interested in photographing me.  The idea makes me both excited and nervous &#8211; I knew I had to find out [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[	<p>Up until now the only people that have taken pictures of me naked are myself and people I am having sex with.  Recently, I was approached by an amateur erotic photographer who is interested in photographing me.  The idea makes me both excited and nervous &#8211; I knew I had to find out more.</p>

	<p>On Saturday, J and I met up with her for coffee.  We hit it off so well that coffee became dinner and her husband joined us.  We&#8217;ve been invited to their home for dinner next week.</p>

	<p>Have I mentioned that they are gorgeous and funny and incredibly intelligent people?  So, letting her take naked pictures of me is a no-brainer.  Still, it seems weird to have someone I&#8217;m not sleeping with see me naked.  I guess I&#8217;ll have to get her to sleep with me. . .</p>
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		<description><![CDATA[	I was flipping through an old diary of mine from high school and found this entry, a poem I wrote when I was 16-years-old.  It is dated October 13th, 1998.  I would still be a virgin for another 4 years.

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&#160;&#160;&#160;&#160;lover&#8217;s eyes

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			<content:encoded><![CDATA[	<p>I was flipping through an old diary of mine from high school and found this entry, a poem I wrote when I was 16-years-old.  It is dated October 13th, 1998.  I would still be a virgin for another 4 years.</p>

	<p>I&#8217;ve never stared into my <br />
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&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;lover&#8217;s eyes<br />
<br />
But his words caress my <br />
<br />
&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;body &#8211; he plays me skillfully <br />
</p>
  &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;in deft hands<br />
<br />
Standing under the hot<br />

  &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;water the idea of him <br />

  &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;sucks my nipples and <br />

  &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;strums my clit<br />
<br />
I overflow<br />
<br />
His sensuality pounds into<br />

  &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;me, the pure eroticism of <br />

  &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;him<br />
<br />
I ache and spread my legs,<br />

  &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;arching my back<br />
<br />
I cannot bridge the gap<br />
<br />
Exhausted and so hungry <br />

  &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;I part for his touch<br />
<br />
Only he can fulfill me<br />
<br />
Then his last erotic words <br />

  &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;flash through my head<br />
<br />
With my hands still behind <br />

  &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;my back I writhe beneath <br />

  &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;what is truly an &#8220;intellectual <br />

  &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;orgasm&#8221;<br />

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			<content:encoded><![CDATA[	<p>Vinnie Tesla, coming off the smashing success of his recent treatise on <a href="http://vinnie-tesla.livejournal.com/20752.html">tentacle porn</a>, has invited his readers to suggest <a href="http://vinnie-tesla.livejournal.com/21756.html">a title of a story he hasn&#8217;t written</a>.  He has replied with a summary of each story.  My suggested title panned out a bit like this:</p>

	<p><blockquote>The New England Liberal rose quickly to the top of her chosen profession, winning the champoinship belt in only her third year of wrestling in the <span class="caps">PWPW </span>(Political Women&#8217;s Professional Wrestling league). She made short work of the Tree Hugger, the Log Cabin Blazer Dyke, and the Real Live Female Libertarian on her way to the top, before challenging the Evangelical Who Votes the Way her Husband Tells Her To in the most high-profile fight in league history.<br />
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But she harbored a shameful secret&#8230;only she knew of her past on an Amarillo chorus line&#8212;a past that could destroy her career should it ever come out!</blockquote></p>

	<p>The meme is entirely too much work for any sane person to take on.  That said, go over and bug Vinnie to write you a story.</p>
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			<content:encoded><![CDATA[	<p>Where have I been, dear readers?  Well, I got my tongue pierced on Thursday so I&#8217;ve been sort of under the weather while I wait for the swelling to go down (at which time I&#8217;ll take a picture, natch).  Podcasting has been out of the question but I expect to catch up with that soon.  I&#8217;ve got a list of short tidbits, though, and it goes a little something like this:</p>

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		<li>I just discovered <a href="http://balthazarb.blogspot.com/">Balthazar B, Man of His Words</a>.  This man seems quite brilliant and sexy and wonderful and not updating for the past few weeks.  I hope he comes back because finding a hot new blog that is already a dead old blog is so depressing. . .</li>
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		<li>A bit of <a href="http://www.sacredwhore.org/mobwhorelog/archives/000340.html">a dialogue</a> has formed between <a href="http://www.sexerati.com">Melissa Gira</a> (aka, Sexiest Podcaster in the World) and I on this question of &#8220;<a href="http://www.sacredwhore.org/mobwhorelog/archives/000338.html">fake women</a>.&#8221;  Touch My Blog has stepped into the discussion with <a href="http://www.touchyourself.org/blog/2005/12/real-fake-and-grace.html">this post</a>.  And while not directly related, I think that the <a href="http://femalemisogynist.blogspot.com/2005/12/22-anti-feminine-feminista-bitch.html">Female Mysogynist</a> is weighing in on the issue as well when she writes today about the &#8220;anti-feminine feminist bitch&#8221;.</li>
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		<li>I&#8217;ve been desperately searching for Chanukah porn and the best I have been able to find (despite the <a href="http://www.nypress.com/16/10/news&#38;columns/feature.cfm">hysterics of this article</a>) is at the <a href="http://www.yarmulkebra.com/">Yarmulkebra Website</a>.  Looks like I&#8217;ll be making my own, I can&#8217;t believe no one has tried to serve this market before!</li>
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		<title>Sex blogs, meet the academy. . .</title>
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		<pubDate>Sun, 04 Dec 2005 03:00:03 +0000</pubDate>
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		<description><![CDATA[	. . . academy, watch out who you shake hands with.

	Who knew that the porn studies field would be so couched in niceties that there wouldn&#8217;t be a single concise description of the state of interracial porn?  There are plenty of screeds in the anti-porn, MacKinnon-esque camp to latch onto.  But, in the [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[	<p>. . . academy, watch out who you shake hands with.</p>

	<p>Who knew that the porn studies field would be so couched in niceties that there wouldn&#8217;t be a single concise description of the state of interracial porn?  There are plenty of screeds in the anti-porn, MacKinnon-esque camp to latch onto.  But, in the world of people taking a rhetorical or cultural studies approach I found very little in terms of hard-hitting soundbites.  So, who summed things up best, in my estimation?</p>

	<p>None other than Sam the Man over at <a href="http://www.sugarbank.com">SugarBank</a> in his post <a href="http://sugarbank.com/2005/06/23/porn-and-prejudice/">&#8220;Porn and Prejudice.&#8221;</a>  He says in a bulleted list what it takes the academics three chapters to write.</p>

	<p>So, why am I linking to a 5-month-old entry in a blog you all read anyway?  Because this week I cited it in a paper I wrote for a graduate seminar in Postcolonial theory.  Sammy, step right up and receive your accolades with Judy, Michel, Gayatri, Frantz, and Homi.</p>

	<p>The title of my paper?  &#8220;Black Dicks in White Chicks:<br />
fantasies of miscegenation, black power, and the colonization of<br />
interracial desire&#8221; </p>
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		<pubDate>Wed, 16 Nov 2005 02:59:43 +0000</pubDate>
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	I&#8217;ll be back in a few weeks &#8211; I have 10 million ideas in my head and I want to make them good.  During the next month I&#8217;m finishing the semester and my boyfriend is moving in.  I plan to keep podcasting.  Email if you&#8217;d like.
 
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	<p>I&#8217;ll be back in a few weeks &#8211; I have 10 million ideas in my head and I want to make them good.  During the next month I&#8217;m finishing the semester and my boyfriend is moving in.  I plan to keep podcasting.  Email if you&#8217;d like.</p>
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		<title>vehicular blow job(s)</title>
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		<pubDate>Tue, 30 Nov 1999 00:00:00 +0000</pubDate>
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Let me begin by saying that my car looks nothing like the one in the photo.  Although, it is about that size and probably only a few years older (seriously, check out when Chevy stopped making the Celebrity).  

When I went to bed last night I just had one car sex story to [...]]]></description>
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Let me begin by saying that my car looks nothing like the one in the photo.  Although, it is about that size and probably only a few years older (seriously, check out when Chevy stopped making the Celebrity).  <br />
<br />
When I went to bed last night I just had one car sex story to tell.  Then my dreams provided fodder for another one.  I&#8217;ll tell them in chronological order, though.<br />
<br />
I never owned a car until this summer when I got a job that made it impossible not to have one.  So, I ended up with a 20-year-old car that had 40,000 miles on it.  My car is basically a tank that runs on a 4-cylinder.  It provides a good scapegoat if I ever get pulled for speeding as it tops out around 80 mph and that is going downhill with a tail wind.  The interesting feature of this car, though, is a bench seat across the front and the fact that it is cavernous inside.  I realized the potential sexual fruitfulness of this set-up right off the bat but had never acted on it until this Sunday.<br />
<br />
My boyfriend and I had gone to see a movie and were driving back to his house.  He had been absent-mindedly playing with my hair and caressing my neck during the car ride.  Something about the tenderness of it made me insanely turned on so I resolved in my mind to finally make use of the roominess of my vehicle.  I pulled into an empty parking lot and turned off the lights and engine.  I just left the music playing.  I then (less than gracefully) removed my purse and other belongings that had been sitting between us on the bench seat.  He had a somewhat perplexed look on his face but I think he figured things out pretty quickly when I slid over next to him on the seat.  We started making out which was exciting but I realized that if I was going to get a real thrill out of this, it had to go farther.  <br />
<br />
That was when I decided to straddle his hips while we kissed.  I was finally starting to get the feel for what I had missed out on during high school.  This maneuver certainly pushed his buttons as well since I could feel his growing erection pressing against me.  He was sliding his hands up my shirt and grabbing my ass under my skirt while we kissed.  Every time a car passed, I would freeze and instinctively duck a bit so that my head was resting on his shoulder.  It was both terrifying and sexy.  In between kisses and hickeys he was whispering in my ear about what a bad girl I was and how he was going to have to spank me when we got home.<br />
<br />
The feel of his cock pushing into me through his jeans was getting to be a bit more than I could stand.  So, I got out of his lap and took to unfastening his jeans.  When that unbearably time-consuming task was finally accomplished I got right to work.  The usual protocol would be that I would continue kissing him while I stroked his shaft and teased him for awhile.  In this case, though, I wasted no time.  I got on my hands and knees across the bench seat and took his whole length in my mouth immediately.  I have always relished the sound that he makes when I first put my mouth on him and this time was no exception.  As I worked on his cock, he reached behind me and pulled my skirt up over my ass and began spanking me.  I was praying that he would slip his fingers into my panties but he never got the chance.  Afer a few minutes of head he became convinced that he saw a person walking by and that we really should leave.  Truthfully, I was pretty ready to get home and do things properly so I had no trouble obliging.  But, I did squeeze his cock through his jeans for the rest of the drive home.  <br />
<br />
I still need to retrieve all of the spilled items from my purse that fell under the seat.<br />
<br />
But thats not all, I promised you two car sex stories and you will get them.  The second is a dream I woke up remembering this morning.  It is only notable in the sense that I <strong>rarely</strong> have sex dreams.  They have been appearing slightly more often lately but they are still few and far between.  They also tend to be about people I know in real life.  Imagine my surprise when I dreamed of giving a blowjob to another blogger that I spent some time exchanging passive-aggresive emails with yesterday!  The most interesting thing about this dream is that I have no idea what this individual looks like so my mind just created an image to stand in.  I might be strange, but my ideal sex partner in fantasies is rarely someone with an aesthetically perfect body.  They make me nervous on principle.  So, in my imagination this individual is slightly chubby, with a benevolent face, and nice hands.  In other words, exactly who I would like to fuck around with.  <br />
<br />
The events of the dream slightly mirrored the events of my actual car escapades except amped up in the implausible ways that dreams often are.  For instance, my roomy car became impossibly large, allowing for positions that would require something more along the lines of a flatbead truck in reality.  Additionally, I was completely naked and the events were unfolding in broad daylight right in front of my house (which is on a relatively busy street and in front of a stop sign).  As is often the case with dreams I only remember flashes of this one.  Looking up at him as I teased the tip of his cock with my tongue, listening to him murmur encouraging words between gasps, feeling his hand caress my ass.  <br />
<br />
Fuzzy memory or not, I still woke up completely turned on. . .<div style="clear:both; padding-bottom: 0.25em;"></div></p>
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		<pubDate>Tue, 30 Nov 1999 00:00:00 +0000</pubDate>
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My boyfriend recently told me that I am allowed to make out with whoever I want.  I took this news with a great deal of excitement and an eye towards the future.  I would parlay my newly found sexual confidence into a very sophisticated and urban form of make-out sluttery.  I would [...]]]></description>
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My boyfriend recently told me that I am allowed to make out with whoever I want.  I took this news with a great deal of excitement and an eye towards the future.  I would parlay my newly found sexual confidence into a very sophisticated and urban form of make-out sluttery.  I would lock lips with anyone that I thought was attractive and enjoy the sheer simplicity of just kissing.  This would all expand my horizons greatly and take me on my path to becoming an ethical slut.<br />
<br />
My boyfriend said this to me almost two months ago.<br />
<br />
I haven&#8217;t kissed anyone.<br />
<br />
Now, this isn&#8217;t for a lack of desire.  I have had my smooch radar honed on  several desirable kissees.  I&#8217;m doing all the right things, too.  Like spending time in the presence of the people I want to kiss and brushing my teeth.  Somehow this doesn&#8217;t seem to be enough.  I think I am missing a piece of the puzzle.<br />
<br />
In reality, I know exactly what the problem is.  Everyone I know, knows I have a boyfriend.  And everyone I know is basically anyone worth kissing in this ridiculously small city.  I really can&#8217;t wait for someone else to kiss me, it isn&#8217;t going to happen.  Unfortunately, I have a ridiculously high fear of rejection.  <br />
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So, fair reader, how do you get up the nerve to lock lips?  Please don&#8217;t say alcohol. . .<div style="clear:both; padding-bottom: 0.25em;"></div></p>
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		<description><![CDATA[	Sam over at Sugarbank is asking some very thoughtful questions today about blogging and revenue.  I started to reply in a comment and thought I might as well flesh things out more.  Now the big difference between Sam and I in asking this question is that he is a businessman (therefore oriented towards [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[	<p><div style="clear:both;"></div>Sam over at <a href="http://www.sugarbank.com">Sugarbank </a>is asking some very thoughtful questions today about <a href="http://www.sugarbank.com/2005/09/ronald_regan_po.html#comments">blogging and revenue</a>.  I started to reply in a comment and thought I might as well flesh things out more.  Now the big difference between Sam and I in asking this question is that he is a businessman (therefore oriented towards finding a solution and of course revenue) whereas I am a grad student (and therefore consider this as a purely academic question, in fact I have written a paper or two on blogging.)  Sam asks:<br />
<blockquote>In a world where paysites are losing ground to blogs, how will people react to the rise of blogs that look beyond advertising as a source of revenue? A change in price from zero is effectively infinite, and guaranteed to be objected to. How much is a blog feed worth? $20 a month? $20 a year? Nothing at all? <br />
<br />
The number of people reading your <span class="caps">RSS</span> feed is going to become a more important measure of your online audience than the number of people who see your website, but without a universal micropayment system are ads the only way to make money?</blockquote><br />
Micropayments are becoming a big question in the music industry as well (at least at the independent level.)  I have label friends that have dabbled with micropayments for mp3 downloads with very little success.  The primary problem seems to be streamlining the payment process to make it universal and easy.  <br />
<br />
Of course there is also still the inherent bias against charging for content that is perceived as ephemeral.  In reality an online subscription to, say, Newsweek, would be much  more useful than hardcopy (because of search, archives, and a million other useful features).  Still, people are printing magazines and pressing CDs.<br />
<br />
I have said for awhile that I think the future of independent music is short-run CD-R release, not download sales.  As for blog content sales?  It doesn&#8217;t seem impossible (especially if it is adult content) but might be an uphill battle.  Salon.com didn&#8217;t really fare too well when it went paid, they seem to be the classic example of this problem.  <br />
<br />
Are blogs making it harder to sell intellectual property?  I&#8217;m not really sure about that, I know that some of the big <span class="caps">MP3</span> blogs have resorted to what is basically <a href="http://www.fluxblog.org/">payola</a> in order to generate revenue.  This is an option for a blog offering other sorts of recommendations or consulting service.  Of course, most people would find that to be distasteful and untrustworthy.  Will people directly pay for content served up in a blog format?  I might be the wrong person to ask as I tend to pay for online products and content that I find compelling but others are still very biased against the delivery method.  While blogging is so old in terms of net years it is still a relatively new phenomenon in the scheme of things.  I think there are things about the technology (RSS, interactivity, etc) that might make it easier to sell intellectual property (especially any sort of subscription) online.<br />
<br />
Of course all the payment I need from Lumpesse is the joy of spouting off my unfounded opinions and inflicting them on others.  I could reach the same ends at a bar but this method diminishes the hangover.<div style="clear:both; padding-bottom: 0.25em;"></div></p>
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		<title>The most famous banned book of all. . .</title>
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		<description><![CDATA[	I was hesitant to write about Lolita during my Banned Book Week celebration because it certainly isn&#8217;t a novel that I need to draw anyone&#8217;s attention to.  Nonetheless, I have chosen to reflect on this icon for two reasons.  First, we are celebrating the 50th anniversary of its publication this year (click here [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[	<p><div style="clear:both;"></div>I was hesitant to write about Lolita during my Banned Book Week celebration because it certainly isn&#8217;t a novel that I need to draw anyone&#8217;s attention to.  Nonetheless, I have chosen to reflect on this icon for two reasons.  First, we are celebrating the 50th anniversary of its publication this year (<a href="http://www.cnn.com/SPECIALS/books/1999/nabokov/lolita.sociological.essay/">click here for the history of its banning in Europe</a>).  Second, I have very fond memories of the first time that I read it.<br />
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<a href="http://search.barnesandnoble.com/booksearch/isbnInquiry.asp?userid=kB2qmexBgb&#38;isbn=0679723161&#38;itm=1"><em>Lolita </em>by Vladimir Nabokov</a><br />
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When I was twelve years old I fancied myself quite the sophisticate and would often seek out books that I had heard were scandalous on my frequent trips to the public library.  Certain ones, like <em>Lady Chatterly&#8217;s Lover</em>, failed to make an impression on me at such a young age.  I was too young and not a skilled enough reader to appreciate many of them.  But one book stands out in my mind from this era because I did read it all the way through and felt very naughty for doing it.  <br />
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I recall the day that I found <em>Lolita </em>on the shelves and surreptitiously took it to a remote corner in the back of the stacks.  I began to peruse it, the whole time terrified that I would be caught.  I&#8217;m not sure what I thought would happen to me if I read this book but I remember feeling like I was doing something very dangerous, liberated, and sexy.  It is a rare novel that can carry a similar weight for me these days but I still seek out that exhilaration.  <br />
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Somehow I summoned up the courage to sandwich <em>Lolita </em>amongst a stack of other books and check it out.  My heart was racing as the circulation clerk fumbled with each volume.  But, shockingly, I wasn&#8217;t chastised or turned in &#8211; just sent off with the reminder that they were all due in three weeks.<br />
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I read <em>Lolita </em>in a few evenings, I couldn&#8217;t put it down.  She was just like me and the stuff of my deepest fantasy and adoration.  I would argue now that there is no purer or more perfect time to read <em>Lolita </em>than when you are a twelve-year-old girl.  To read it at this age is to miss out on the prurient voyeurism that Nabokov projects on his reader.  A girl reads <em>Lolita </em>through Lo&#8217;s eyes, not Humbert&#8217;s.  From this perspective, Humbert is dreadfully sexy and intriguing.<br />
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While I&#8217;m sure that most of you have read <em>Lolita</em>, I wonder how many have Nabokov&#8217;s other works.  It is often erroneously stated in literary circles that <em>Lolita </em>is his only work worth reading.  If someone has told you this I suggest you stop being friends with them immediately and spend any time you might have spent listening to them blather about literature on the reading of <em><a href="http://search.barnesandnoble.com/booksearch/isbnInquiry.asp?userid=kB2qmexBgb&#38;isbn=0679723412&#38;itm=1">Pnin</a></em>.  Is it as sexy as <em>Lolita</em>?  No.  But it is heart-breaking and funny and remarkable.<div style="clear:both; padding-bottom: 0.25em;"></div></p>
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		<title>There is no better time to be a library student and obsessed with sex. . .</title>
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		<description><![CDATA[	. . . than  Banned Books Week.  So, I decided to let my worlds collide and feature a banned book every day this week. (You know, for the rest of them since I was slack on Monday).  Of course, these won&#8217;t be just any banned books, but those that were targeted for [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[	<p><div style="clear:both;"></div>. . . than <a href="http://www.ala.org/ala/oif/bannedbooksweek/bannedbooksweek.htm"> Banned Books Week</a>.  So, I decided to let my worlds collide and feature a banned book every day this week. (You know, for the rest of them since I was slack on Monday).  Of course, these won&#8217;t be just any banned books, but those that were targeted for being obscene.  I hope some of you will decide to read a sexy banned book this week and maybe even get aroused. . . in the name of freedom.  I&#8217;ll start with the banned book that I chose to enlighten myself with this week.<br />
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<a href="http://search.barnesandnoble.com/booksearch/isbnInquiry.asp?userid=kB2qmexBgb&#38;isbn=0802131786&#38;itm=1">Tropic of Cancer by Henry Miller</a><br />
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Miller has been renowned for years for being a disgusting pervert and a brilliant author.  Lauded as one of the finest in the 20th century, some don&#8217;t realize that his book Tropic of Cancer was banned in the US for 27 years for being obscene.  First published in Paris in 1934, the ban was not lifted until 1961.<br />
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Written as an autobiographical look at his own life as an expatriate in Paris in the 1930s, the  book reveals the underbelly of Miller&#8217;s life, what he sees as infintite decay. Tropic of Cancer is obsessed with female sexuality and features many encounters with women which Miller tends to describe with a certain lush desperation.  Miller&#8217;s writing still speaks best for itself though:<br />
<blockquote>Mona at the window waving goodbye.  White heavy face, hair streaming wild.  And now it is a heavy bedroom, breathing regularly through the gills, sap still oozing from between her legs, a warm feline odor and her hair in my mouth.  My eyes are closed.  We breath warmly into each other&#8217;s mouth.  Close together, America three thousand miles away.  I never want to see it again.  To have her here in bed with me, breathing on me, her hair in my mouth &#8211; I count that something of a miracle.  Nothing can happen now till morning. . .</blockquote><br />
Is there any doubt now why <a href="http://www.nerve.com">Nerve Magazine</a> has named their <a href="http://www.nerve.com/fiction/henrymillerawards/001/">award for sexy literature</a> after this man?<div style="clear:both; padding-bottom: 0.25em;"></div></p>
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		<title>Comstock Films &#8211; Go buy some this Wednesday!</title>
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		<description><![CDATA[	I ordered some movies from Comstock Films about a week or two ago as I had been hearing wonderful things about them for a very long time.  Within a few days of placing my order, I received an email letting me know that Comstock is having a great Red Cross fundraiser on Wednesday, September [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[	<p><div style="clear:both;"></div>I ordered some movies from <a href="http://www.comstockfilms.com">Comstock Films</a> about a week or two ago as I had been hearing wonderful things about them for a very long time.  Within a few days of placing my order, I received an email letting me know that Comstock is having a great Red Cross fundraiser on Wednesday, September 14th.<br />
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Tomorrow, they will be giving double the amount of your order to the Red Cross.  So, if you buy one of their great DVDs for 25 bucks, 50 goes to the Red Cross.   And, you still get an amazing movie.  So, what makes Comstock Films so amazing?  I watched &#8220;Xana and Dax&#8221; and &#8220;Marie and Jack&#8221; over this past weekend.  Initially, I was partial to Marie and Jack &#8211; It was really amazing to watch how sweet and tender they are with each other.  Although, I think my preference might have something to do with viewing Marie and Jack with my boyfriend.  <br />
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After a second, more objective, viewing of both films today, I think that I prefer Xana and Dax.  The interview with them was incredibly sexy and really built up to the on-screen sex.  I also thought that the lighting for the shoot was gorgeous.  But, seriously, I&#8217;m obviously not watching for the lighting.  The sex was tender but still very insistent and captivated my attention immediately.  Since it followed in a logical progression instead of the frantic scene-changing of conventional porn, I felt myself really drawn into the action.  <br />
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Whoever thinks that real sex can&#8217;t be sexy needs to try out one of these films.  Watching them helped me realize a few things.  First, porn can turn me on and I can even get off while watching it!  Second, I am so grateful for my relationship and that I get to have sex with someone I love.  Watching these couples in their most intimate moments helped me realize how much my sex is just like that and how much I treasure it for that reason.<br />
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I implore everyone to go buy a film from <a href="http://www.comstockfilms.com">Comstock</a> tomorrow.  You will enjoy it immensely and be giving to an important cause.<div style="clear:both; padding-bottom: 0.25em;"></div></p>
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		<description><![CDATA[	So, I was reading my Nerve.com horoscope and thought it was sort of apropos.  

I don&#8217;t know if you were ever a fan of professional wrestling, but if you&#8217;ve ever seen it, you will have noticed the efficacy of having a tag-team partner or wily, rules-be-damned manager come to your aid when you&#8217;ve been [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[	<p><div style="clear:both;"></div>So, I was reading my <a href="http://www.nerve.com/regulars/horoscopes/09_05_05/">Nerve.com horoscope</a> and thought it was sort of apropos.  <br />
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<blockquote>I don&#8217;t know if you were ever a fan of professional wrestling, but if you&#8217;ve ever seen it, you will have noticed the efficacy of having a tag-team partner or wily, rules-be-damned manager come to your aid when you&#8217;ve been hit by a chair. This is an important life lesson for you this week, Capricorn. You need allies. Allies who will be willing to give someone a suplex, yes, but also allies in the arena of love. It may be a friend who can talk to you up to someone you&#8217;d like to get with, or just someone who is willing to spit in their hand and shake on the common goal of explosive intercourse. Just make sure you find them, put on some spandex and get to work.</blockquote><br />
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Reading this made me think about the events of yesterday evening which I spent with, who I guess is now a sexual ally.  Last night my order of activities was very pleasant phone sex with someone in the entirely wrong hemisphere.  After that adventure I went out to a concert with a friend that I have had since I started undergrad.  We actually campaigned for Nader together back in my more idealistic days.  I had a massive crush on Jo back then.  Since that time I have witnessed him go through a really destructive relationship with one of my ex-roomates.  Jo and I have something in common.  She (the ex) was his only and the boy is my only.  <br />
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On the drive home the conversation turned to sex and when he pulled up on front of my house we weren&#8217;t really ready to stop talking.  (No, this isn&#8217;t going where you think it is going.)  So, we went to a diner to grab a late-night snack and coffee.  (See, I told you so.)  It was a strange experience for me because I am used to talking about sex in an open and honest way.  But but but, it felt very strange with Jo.  Perhaps because I wanted to sleep with him when I was 18 or because I knew the fucked up shit his ex did to him while they were together.  Or maybe it was just the <strong>palpable sexual tension</strong> between us.  <br />
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I&#8217;m not sure I would even want to sleep with Jo or that my boyfriend would go for it.  Nor am I at all sure that Jo wants to sleep with me.  However, the fact that I felt a compelling desire to kiss him when he gave me a hug goodnight must mean something.  Maybe it just means that I am horny and really miss my sweetie and desperately need a cuddle.  I&#8217;m going with that explanation for awhile.<div style="clear:both; padding-bottom: 0.25em;"></div></p>
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		<description><![CDATA[	As you may know, this blog is a mirror of my Livejournal.  I tend to post only the most pertinent things here but I also leave out the majority of the pictures that I take.  Today I was indexing my pictures on my Livejournal and considering re-posting some of them here.  Instead, [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[	<p><div style="clear:both;"></div>As you may know, this blog is a mirror of <a href="http://lumpesse.livejournal.com">my Livejournal</a>.  I tend to post only the most pertinent things here but I also leave out the majority of the pictures that I take.  Today I was indexing my pictures on my Livejournal and considering re-posting some of them here.  Instead, I decided to do something a little different.  I have set up a guest livejournal account that has access to viewing my journal.  If you are interested in looking around at what is missing from here and don&#8217;t have a Livejournal account or want to sign up for one, email me for a login.<div style="clear:both; padding-bottom: 0.25em;"></div></p>
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		<description><![CDATA[	I&#8217;ve been playing with my new camera some more and really like results I&#8217;m getting without a flash.  So, you are being treated to a picture of my rear end.

Of course it is at a peculiar angle because it is quite difficult to take a picture of your own rear end.

I went to a [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[	<p><div style="clear:both;"></div>I&#8217;ve been playing with my new camera some more and really like results I&#8217;m getting without a flash.  So, you are being treated to a picture of my rear end.<br />
<a href="http://www.lumpesse.com/uploaded_images/tushy-785807.JPG"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="http://www.lumpesse.com/uploaded_images/tushy-781717.JPG" border="0" alt="tushy picture" /></a><br />
Of course it is at a peculiar angle because it is quite difficult to take a picture of your own rear end.<br />
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I went to a new bar in town last night and lamented the fact that I have been in this town too long.  It is weird to walk into a place with no plan to meet people and running into at least 5 that you know.  Even stranger, I think that a male friend of mine that I have known forever was hitting on me last night.  It must have been because I started talking about making out with girls.  Or that he was drunk.<div style="clear:both; padding-bottom: 0.25em;"></div></p>
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		<description><![CDATA[	So, I bought a new digital camera this afternoon. It is great. After taking a bunch of random pictures I realized that I don&#8217;t have Photoshop installed on my computer anymore. Damn. So, all I have to show for it is this picture of my lips.

In other news, I&#8217;ve figured out why I couldn&#8217;t get [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[	<p><div style="clear:both;"></div>So, I bought a new digital camera this afternoon. It is great. After taking a bunch of random pictures I realized that I don&#8217;t have Photoshop installed on my computer anymore. Damn. So, all I have to show for it is this picture of my lips.<br />
<a href="http://www.lumpesse.com/uploaded_images/lips-775761.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="http://www.lumpesse.com/uploaded_images/lips-773953.jpg" border="0" alt="" /></a><br />
In other news, I&#8217;ve figured out why I couldn&#8217;t get up the nerve to be a phone sex operator. I think I enjoy it too much myself. Doing a sexual act that I genuinely adore for money seemed, well, like prostitution. And, the idea of doing it with people that I don&#8217;t care for really turned my stomach. I imagined it to be a really traumatizing experience and might even turn me from enjoying it at all. I put this all together this evening in the aftermath of some lovely, mind-numbing, insanely erotic, very perfect phone sex that I had. It isn&#8217;t a part of my sexuality that I am willing to sell out to the highest bidder any more than I would my actual body. Now, do not read this as a blanket condemnation of people that are professional phone operators. I do not think it equates directly with prostitution but I realized that in terms of my emotional reaction is basically comes down to that.<br />
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Did I mention? Stunningly good phone sex. Sigh. I&#8217;ll post more about it once I come down from my cloud &#8211; perhaps I&#8217;ll even be able to involve the other party in question.<div style="clear:both; padding-bottom: 0.25em;"></div></p>
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